RE Withdrawal

I had my first U/S at my OB Clinic today. The baby is now measuring 9 weeks, 5 days, so just two days behind where it should be. The heart rate was 183. The sac was only measuring at 7 weeks & something. The Dr. wasn't there for the U/S, so I asked the technician about the sac & she didn't seem to think anything of it. She thought it was my first U/S since learning I was pregnant, so I had to explain everything to her. I told her about the IVF & the vanishing twin & she just said, "Hmmmm, I see". I wanted to jump up & shout, give me that wand, I'll show you how it's done. OMG, I miss my RE already, I want to go back there, help me!! Don't they know that I am a special needs infertile, for the love of God? Plus, this pregnancy has been touch & go from the beginning. How am I going to make without the loving, hand holding of my Reproductive Clinic? This is going to be interesting. I have an appointment with my Nurse Practitioner next Thursday to go over all the paperwork & everything. Yikes, I'm scared..............I'm scared to hope that this might actually work, I've been preparing myself for the worst all along, now I don't know what to think. Oh God, please let this be O.K.