Wednesday, January 24, 2007

My Very First Post

Here goes nothing....

My Hunky Husband & I have been married for 4 years now & have been trying unsuccessfully to have a baby for 3 1/2 of those 4 years. After numerous Dr.'s visits, 4 cycles of chlomid, some cysts, Stage 4 Endometriosis & one Fallopian tube removed later, here we are. We finally saw an RE in June of last year and are now in the middle of our first IVF cycle.
I thought it might be theraputic for me to spew my guts on here rather than the alternative, which was downing too many glasses of wine & crying inappropriately at social functions. Yes, welcome to the world of Infertility people. If you can relate, I feel for you. I think 8 out of my 10 friends are either pregnant right now, or just had a baby. I kind of feel like God hates me right now, why doesn't he just strike me down with a bolt of lightening and get it over with already...Jeez.
If one more person tells me to "just relax", or "be content with God's plan", I am going to scream. People, I am missing a tube, the other one is most likely blocked & I have severe Endometriosis. I don't think relaxing is going to work in this scenario, but miracles do happen, because I have heard that one also. I wish people would just say, "gosh, that really sucks & I am sorry you have to go through this", it's not hard & it makes me feel a hell of alot better.
This post might seem a bit crabby, but it feels good to get things off my chest...Thanks for listening. It would be nice to make some friends who can relate to my circumstances.

Tomorrow's Episode...IVF 101

2 comments:

ld23 said...

I know exactly how you feel - I was diagonosed with Stage 4 Endometriosis in November 06 - we had been trying for a baby for over 3 years and was starting to think we wasn't doing it right!

It was a small relief to know that something was wrong to be honest.

I am going in next week to have it removed (fingers crossed) at the moment the surgeon is not sure whether he can go in again via laporoscopy or if I will need a laparotomy (bigger cut across stomach!) and then he may remove the right ovary and fallopian.

Fingers crossed for you with your IVF - they have said I will probably need to go down that route too - but I think I will just get this sorted for now - I am not a great lover of hospitals at all.

Keep up the blog - its nice to know that other sufferers are feeling the same as me.

JenderBender said...

Good luck with your surgery. My surgery was also supposed to just be a laporoscopy, but when they got in there it was worse than anticipated, so I had a laparotomy. I will be honest with you, it wasn't a picnic, but my Husband & friends were very supportive with my recovery. I couldn't have done it without them. I was out of work for 3 weeks. Good luck, I will be thinking of you. Keep me posted.