Tuesday, February 20, 2007

And The Panic Sets In....

It's tomorrow, OMG, what will the results be? Will I finally become a Mother? Will it be a big fat negative? How will I react to the results? How will my Husband feel?
Speaking of my Husband, has been so supportive during this whole process & I love him more than I could ever imagine. He hugs me when I am wallowing in self pity & crying so hard I can't breathe, he tells me it will be our turn someday & that he has hope...he knows this will work. He sent my favorite, Gerbera Daisies, to me at work yesterday. The card read, My Beautiful Wife, I am so incredibly proud of you, I Love you, Your Husband. He has gathered the masses, getting all of our friends & family to rally & pray for us. I have been literally overwhelmed by the outpouring of support & comfort we have received over the last 3 + years struggling with this infertility. I was brought to tears at Church on Sunday when one of our Pastors came over to us, hugged us & said I love you guys & have been praying faithfully for you. The tears were of joy, that people care that much & that I have such amazing people in my life. No matter what the result is tomorrow, I know that I will have people there for me that will support me.
I am so grateful that I found all of the IF Blogs out there, your blogs comfort me, give me hope & also let me feel your pain. It's nice to know that someone gets it. Sometimes people's posts make me cry, I wish none of you had to endure this heartache, it's just not fair. Everyone of you out there would make amazing Mothers & hopefully one day you will be.
To all my friend's out there who are Mothers, you inspire me & I am so happy for you. Don't be scared to tell me when you are pregnant again, or not talk about all things baby around me. I will let you know if I can't handle it, but I still want to be a part of your life.

Wow, that was really sappy, sorry about that. Anyway, on to crapping my pants for tomorrow's blood test. God help me.....

3 comments:

Heather said...

It WILL be postitive! This WILL happen for you! You'll probably have TWINS!

Please let us all know right away when you find out that you're going to be a MOM!

Bumble said...

Oh Jen, I'm really hoping against all hope that its a lovely BFP. Good luck for today!!!

Stephanie said...

I am praying that you get a BFP! I am so glad that you have has so much support. Your hubby sounds wonderful. Treasure him!