And The Panic Sets In....

It's tomorrow, OMG, what will the results be? Will I finally become a Mother? Will it be a big fat negative? How will I react to the results? How will my Husband feel?
Speaking of my Husband, has been so supportive during this whole process & I love him more than I could ever imagine. He hugs me when I am wallowing in self pity & crying so hard I can't breathe, he tells me it will be our turn someday & that he has hope...he knows this will work. He sent my favorite, Gerbera Daisies, to me at work yesterday. The card read, My Beautiful Wife, I am so incredibly proud of you, I Love you, Your Husband. He has gathered the masses, getting all of our friends & family to rally & pray for us. I have been literally overwhelmed by the outpouring of support & comfort we have received over the last 3 + years struggling with this infertility. I was brought to tears at Church on Sunday when one of our Pastors came over to us, hugged us & said I love you guys & have been praying faithfully for you. The tears were of joy, that people care that much & that I have such amazing people in my life. No matter what the result is tomorrow, I know that I will have people there for me that will support me.
I am so grateful that I found all of the IF Blogs out there, your blogs comfort me, give me hope & also let me feel your pain. It's nice to know that someone gets it. Sometimes people's posts make me cry, I wish none of you had to endure this heartache, it's just not fair. Everyone of you out there would make amazing Mothers & hopefully one day you will be.
To all my friend's out there who are Mothers, you inspire me & I am so happy for you. Don't be scared to tell me when you are pregnant again, or not talk about all things baby around me. I will let you know if I can't handle it, but I still want to be a part of your life.

Wow, that was really sappy, sorry about that. Anyway, on to crapping my pants for tomorrow's blood test. God help me.....