Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Am I still pregnant?

OMG, all this wait & see mumbo jumbo is simply agonizing. I was doing O.K. up until now, I just have to keep thinking a day & a half, that's it, hang in there. Then I thought, what if they still can't give me any answers on Friday? OMG, kill me now. O.K., that was a little dramatic, but seriously this is torture. I just keep praying & hoping that the little heartbeat keeps going & that maybe by some miracle it can pull through & make it. Oh God, please let this be it. At least if I finally get an answer I can stop squeezing my breasts every five minutes to make sure they are still sore.
We were out running errands on Sunday & my Husband turned to me & said, "We should go on another vacation this year". What? Did he just say what I thought he said? Yes, there is a God! I tried to act cool & said, sounds good, if you want to. Yes, yes, yes!!!! We can't go to Tahiti as originally planned because of all the IVF costs, but we can sure as Hell go to Mexico or Punta Cana again. I am psyched, if you know me at all you know I am a Beach Freak!! My Husband & I got married in Barbados on the beach with 13 of our closest friends & was simply amazing. We can't wait to get back there again someday! I've got to get that trip booked soon, before my Husband changes his mind. :)
It was my Birthday last weekend & I am a major book nut, so my Husband let me pick out some books I wanted at Barnes & Noble. I got a couple new cookbooks & of course some Chic Lit as well. I have made a couple dishes out of "Asian Noodles" already & they were tasty. I love spice, but my Husband doesn't do so well with it. He usually gets a fiery butt the next day & has to e-mail to tell me all about it, but it's all good. We are still looking into Le Cordon Bleu for me if the whole baby thing never pans out (but, it will), that is our back up plan! :)

Adios Amigos!!


Carol said...

You don't have much longer to wait now! I too will be hoping that you see a beautiful and strong heartbeat. I will be checking in on you tomorrow, so please update as soon as you can.

And happy belated birthday!

Heather said...

By the time you read this, you'll probably KNOW! I'll pray for you tonight, and I'll be refreshing your blog all morning! I have your appt set in my Palm - I can't wait to hear the good news!

Baby Blues said...

Sounds like a good back up plan. Mr. Kite also wants to take a culinary course. By the way, our back up plans are piling up and I don't mind if it starts tumbling down once I get a BFP. :-)
I can't stand the suspense! Hang in there.