Saturday, March 17, 2007

Depressing Update

Sorry for the late post, but yesterday was not a good day. We had the U/S & both of the hearts are now beating. The one embryo that had a heartbeat last week was beating really good yesterday, but the sac is too small for the baby. It is 1/3 of the size it should be & looks all cramped up in there. The embryo grew over the week & there was some fetal development, but the Dr. said that there is probably a genetic defect with it, that's why the late development & small sac. The one that's heart is now beating is very slow & way behind the other one. She said it already looked like it was starting to pull away from the placenta. She said that's natures way of taking care of an abnormal embryo. The Dr. was really quiet yesterday & just said she's really sorry, but she would have to refer me to my OB now to get another medical opinion.
Was able to get in to my OB yesterday afternoon (he's the one who did my laparatomy last summer). He pretty much agreed with her & said that with most IVF pregnancies they would prefer to do a D&C, because with all the drugs they give you to make your lining thicker there is more bleeding & severe cramping than with a normal miscarriage. He wanted to consult with my Dr. at CRM again before making any decisions, so he said he would call me later. He called later & my Dr. had already left for vacation (good timing, hey), so he talked to the owner of CRM & he reviewed all the notes & films. He said he thinks it's premature at this time to make any decisions, since the embryo in the small sac has a very strong heartbeat still. I am supposed to call Monday morning & make an appointment with the owner to have an U/S done next Wed or Thurs. This totally blows, I am pretty depressed right now. I know it probably isn't something to worry about now, but I hope those 13 embryos we froze are good. I don't think I could deal with this again.
I am having that baby shower for my good friend in 3 weeks, so this couldn't be worse timing. I had to get all the invites out yesterday & all I can do is cry. I know this will pass like everything does, but right now it seems just awful. It's bad enough to have to deal with 4 years of infertility, now this. I have the best luck in the world.

I'll keep you posted on the U/S next week.


Heather said...

Oh, Jen! That's terrible! Can't they test those embryos for genetic defects? I'm so sorry.

I'll pray for you. Maybe there's a miracle out there for you and Rick.

Let me know if you need anything.

Susan said...

Oh god. Oh god. What you must be feeling right now. I'm just so very sorry.

Carol said...

Oh gosh Jen, I am just so sorry you are having to go through this. I know there's nothing I can say to make you feel better, but know that I am thinking of you.

Baby Blues said...

I'm so sorry Jen. This is awful. I don't know what to say.
If you've seen Little Miss Sunshine, just picture the scene where Dwayne storms out of the van crying and screaming. Olive just walks up to him, saying nothing but placing her arm around his shoulder and putting her head on his shoulder. Nothing said but the gesture priceless and well understood.
I'm just here thinking of you.

Hopeful Mother said...

I'm so sorry. I'm praying for your miracle.

Thinking of you.

Bumble said...

Oh Jen, I'm so so sorry to hear that. I'll keep praying that your little ones can somehow come through this. I'm so sorry you're going through this, it should be a happy exciting time for you. Hugs sweetie x